My Journey Back To Love

For some time all I could feel was the suffering of the world. I couldn’t get out of bed because I was riddled with our collective pain. I felt it all on such a deep empathic level. The war, rape culture, discrimination, pedophilia, murders, animal and environmental abuse, world hunger, all of the hate in people’s hearts, the hurt. It was debilitating. My chest felt heavy, my whole body ached, tears streaming down my face. I honestly wanted to check out. I couldn’t believe how much injustice happens here; how much torture and agony.

Weeks went by, months, and eventually, I reached a place of breakthrough. Suddenly I felt love slowly seeping into all of the places where I was experiencing pain. This immense unconditional love for every single soul that walks on the earth. I understood that we were more than just our bodies and personalities, our shadows and pain. We were here to grow together and to remember the truth of who we are. Love. This love I feel growing every day inside my chest and in every cell of my body.

Ironically at times, the suffering can feel similar to the love. It’s like this overwhelming energy buzzing from my heart. Radiating out golden light, harmony, unity, longing for oneness again. It can be overpowering and all-consuming. When I’m tapped into this eternal love my body feels like it’s going to explode. Tears still streaming down my face, I feel so much vast and indescribable love for everyone. Those who have loved me, hurt me, those who I have met, and people I will never meet. The victims, the criminals, the man and woman walking down the street. It's a love that has no bounds. No beginning or end. It doesn't matter what you have or haven't done, the love always remains.

Sometimes it takes me having conversations with others to realize how different my perspective is. And it surprises me how much judgement and resentment lingers in our collective.

Some progress has been made, but the injustice still upsets me gravely. And I wait often impatiently for others to remember this infinite love and deep connection to all that is.

I don’t know how long it will take for all of us to see the world through this fully accepting and compassionate lens. But until then I will do my part to remind you of the love that you are down to your very core and the love that we can create here on this beautiful planet together. Miracles of universal peace are possible, we just have to remember and embody this divine love.

I love you for where you are.

I love you for who you are.

I love you because you are.

Thank you for being here. I love you forever.

Breelyn

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